Glasses

So my eyes have ulcers in them. Didn't know that could happen but hey at least now I know.  So I can't wear contacs for a few weeks so I had to get glasses for the first time in 6 years.  I am legally blind so it was a necessity but I am happy to say that I like them and they look good on me. I will probably go back to wearing contacts most of the time when I can but I am happy to have these glasses as well.  Maybe I will publish a pic eventually. Well thats all toodles!

Blue eyes

Why must blue eyes distract me so?  I mean seriously I have the hardest time concentrating on anything else but those blue blue eyes, oh and that chiseled jaw and those strong arms ....... sigh.........! But really I can I think about are those blue eyes........

Please..... lets work this out.....please don't go

Why can't we just talk it out?  Why did you just decide to ignore me and delete me from your life and not let me know why?  You just can't do that.  What happened?  I want to find out what happened.  I want to see if we can clear the air and maybe fix it.  But I can't if you won't let it happen and won't answer.  I know you are angry others have said you are but please talk to me.

Who I am

I found myself.  I don't know how I ended up confused, lost, and not knowing what to do.  I am a photographer and will always be a photographer.  I love seeing the beauty of this world and I love being able to capture it, to capture moments of time and hold on to it.  I love looking at the world through my lens and seeing it framed.  I love capturing moments in peoples lives and seeing their soul reflected back in a picture.  My dream and my goal is to be a photographer, taking pictures around the world as well as owning a studio.  This is who I am and I know it.  I won't ever doubt it again. 

Restless

So yesterday I did something very strange.  After my class I got in my car and headed south I guess towards the Provo Mall.  I passed the mall and got on the freeway still heading south.  I kept driving south, past Springville and just kept driving eventally I got off the freeway and turned around in Santaquin.  I was deeply tempted to just keep going.  Not really sure where I would have ended up but as I turned around part of me felt depressed to be going back.  I drove home and that was that.  It was a strange feeling.  I think I need a vacation to get away or something more exciting to happen right now.  I'm restless. 

My life as a story

I have discovered in many ways that my life is like a story.  Now you may be thinking isn't all peoples lives like a story?  Don't we all have introductions, plots, challenges, trials, love, and endings?  And my answer is Why, yes we do!  But recently while thinking about all that has happened in my life I came to the conclusion that I look at my life like a story.  When I think about past events and moments I think of it as rereading a part in a story.  I see the characters move about, how they think, act, and discribe my settings as if I was reading it. Now this may not be very interesting to you and it may seem like a random topic and idea that popped into my head but this is not your blog its mine.  Ha ha

Me

This is a quote that I think really explains me. "I arise from the ashes of doubt, of depression and of self pity. I arise a new being - strong, confident, beautiful and without limits!"

HELP!!! I'M LOST!!!!

I just feel like I've lost myself.  I don't know where I am going or what road I am even on.  I'm like on this littel side stand staring at a blank map, confused.  I want to scream out HELP!!!!! and hope that some magically Fairy Godmother comes floating down to my rescue.  But sadly that won't happen.  :-(   I'm sure I will figure out where I am going sooner or later, I just that right now I wasn't stuck.