The principle of the matter

There has been some talk and stuff with one of my previous blogs.  I can see how harsh it is but i stand my the principle that never apologizing what what I write and never delete what I write.  I was frustrated, angry, and upset, therefore I blogged it out.  I needed to get it out and I had my lap top so I did.    

I love it when someone exaggerates something in order to cause drama. . . . Don't you?

"All is fair in love and war"

I will never understand people who do one thing and say something else.  The other day while on facebook I was bored, waiting for a friend to be ready to go and I was chatting with some people.  I happened to click on my other friend's ex and said 'hey'.  I knew him it was no big deal.  Our conversation was seriously two seconds and that was it.  I mentioned it in passing to my friend who told my other friend and now she is mad at me for talking to her ex, like I was trying to steal him or get him or whatever, which I am not.  My old high school group of friends is ending.  We all know it is but some are trying to keep it patched up even if they know that we can't be the same as we were in high school.  People change, situations change, life changes.  Thats that.  We are not the same people we were in high school. Some of us have changed for the better, and some (I think) have changed for the worse.  Some of them think that one of my friends is dramatic and that her family craves drama, when in reality it was them who were causing most of the drama anyways. 

Well thats my rant.

A New Year with new goals

Last year was ....... well interesting to say the least.  A lot of good things happened, some very exciting but this year was no exception to disappointments, fails, depression and such.  This year I have a whole new set of goals and to do some of them I am going to have to let go of the past even if that means I let some of the people I love.  It is a sad fact but sometimes life cannot move on with out doing so.  I have to be ready for the coming years whatever they may hold for me.  This year will be a good year, full of new adventures mixed with some old ones as well. 

The real reason for the season

Recently I met a lady who really made a point on the Christmas season.  She and her family had stopped giving gifts when her kids grew up and now they go and do things as a family instead.  She said she 'doesn't have to worry about the waiting in lines, worrying about what gifts to give, and doesn't have to deal with the "me. me. me." people in this country'.  She remembers the real reason we celebrate this season and that would be the birth of God's son in this world and the miracle it was.  She also believes that it is about the other holidays of other religions as well.  We should not have to worry about offending someone by saying Merry Christmas or Happy Holidays.  We should be caring and giving instead of thinking only of ourselves.  Giving is not rushing into stores and fighting over something for someone else for Christmas.  It is not getting angry at the clerks if something is out of stock or not marked the right sale price.  It is not waking up and wanting everything you asked for.  It is the thought of the gifts, homemade or otherwise.  It is the fact that you try to think of something you know someone will love and being able to give it to them and seeing their faces light up at the sight of it.  I wish everyone in the world a Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays and a Happy New Year.  Let us try to have peace in our homes and in our lives.  Let us think of others first.  Let us try to be a better friend and neighbor to those who are less fortunate as well as a better friend in general.  Let us be kind and loving to our families.  Let us be this way not once a year but all the days of our lives.

What is going on in my head?

I feel so confused about my life.  I seem to be watching as the world go by.  I feel stuck.  Work is fine, school is fine and almost over,  socially everythings great, even perfect.  I have nothing to complain about, but yet I feel so empty and unfufilled.  I don't know whats wrong or why I feel this way.  I love my life and everyone in it.  I am not mad at anyone.  I love my friends and family and I am very grateful for them.  I can't imagine my life without them.  But again why do I feel this way?  What do I do?  Ugh!!!!

What is truth?

What is truth, when everyone believes that what they say is right? How can we be happy if we do not know the truth about life, love, and God? We have truth, yes. We know the answers to the timeless questions, and we know we can have eternal happiness if we trust in God. But oh how trust waivers because of the trickiness of the natural man and of the cunning liar, the devil himself. He has made the faith and trust of man falter and fails and instead put the idea of self-interest and greed into their weak hearts. Yet God is all powerful and has more power than the Fallen Angel. God knows the heart of his children and loves each of them. Such love no man can yet understand, but close is a mother’s love to her children. The division of truth and lies is thinning and many lies include truth in them. White and Black mesh into gray to the minds of the natural man, but it is not truly that way, truth has not changed and will not change.

What the ...?

How can someone be mad at you for no reason that you know of and ignoring you and than the first thing they say to you is "i'm maddly in love with you".  Who does that?  I mean really.  If you are in love with me, why were you ignoring me in the first place.  And too bad that you know for a fact that I don't love you that way, that you are my friend but nothing more.  I care about you and trust you, but as a friend.  Sorry but your in the friend zone.

I LOVE BYU'S VOCAL POINT!!!!!!!!

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To lose you would be like being in an endless and bloody war.  I am yours heart and soul.  Without you I would be stuck in endless torment, not living nor dying.  I am yours completely and fully for all eternity.  You are now my life, my love, my existence.